Lost. Waiting.
Where would this take us? It’s hurting right now cause I really dont know. I care for you & you the same too. I wonder what’s going through your mind, I’m sad actually. Just after January (when I left Bangalore) I had dreams about us. Working hard for our future, getting a flat together, eventually getting old & setting up a retirement home in India. I was then looking out got Architect positions, hoping for you to be here with me.
Well life doesn’t always goes as plan & the Atkins thing came up & you started something of your own. It was a quite a torturous time for me actually. On one hand I was happy that you could start something of your own, really proud of you. On the other, I was really sad that this could spell that you would never be here with me. All my dreams about us was dashed, i had actually cried a few times thinking.
Then I started to think I was silly, getting sad about a possible outcome in my own head. I wonder what love really is? Why does this cause me so much pain?
sometimes I wonder are we really compatible? I’m someone who cares alot about my partner, who would put himself over myself. Last night while we were chatting, u kept talking to me despite knowing that I’m tired & not responding well. Will this arrangement keep us happy? are we able to work this out love?
With reliance, expectation forms & when actual deviates from expected outcome come dejection.
Feeling a little frustrated that I can’t reach you. Called abt 5 times, I think.
Hmm.
Are u still sleeping at this hour?
Also feeling a lil paranoid & this isn’t helping. Arghhhh I should focus on my exams.
Refocus & reprogram of priority.
So many opportunities
i need to brush up on my ‘CCA’ to join them. hmmmm
Things to check out when i have the time
http://greenergadgets.org/index.php/design-competition/
is it me? is it a big deal he didn’t message good night.
should i be bothered?
i think this is stupid.
i think i had misalign my priority.
im a daughter, student & girlfriend
focus on your school work more. relationship are slippery
hmm i dont know.
do you delibrately ignore that post on fb wall. i said i miss u =(
hais.
